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Bella Thorne talks about her recent engagement to Benjamin Mascolo, her dream family, and life in show business

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Bella Thorne has just announced her engagement to Benjamin Mascolo. The talented actress who became famous worldwide for co-starring in Disney Channel’s Shake it up, invited us to her Hollywood home for the first time after announcing she will marry the Italian singer.

She began working as a model at the very early age of six weeks old. After what has been an incredibly extensive professional life, Bella continues with her internationally successful career as an actress, singer and writer. Always well documented by the media, her life is not without controversy although Bella seems to be now in the best place she has ever been. She agreed to this intimate interview for Hola! USA to tell us all about her great love, her ever present intense emotions and yes, her Cuban roots!

Bella commented, “My first language was Spanish, but when I went into third grade I was diagnosed with dyslexia. I could not read in one language, let alone two… Then I went to a learning center. Their recommendation was that I stop speaking Spanish and concentrate in English because I could not read at all. It was very difficult and I could not learn how to read, write and spell until I was around 8 years old, when I was able to write a full page… It took me a really long time of struggling. I was also bullied a lot in school, surprisingly; even though I was in Miami, I was bullied at school for speaking Spanish. I still can’t come to understand it… I’m still so confused about that.”

Kids pick on anything and anyone, they were probably jealous…
I was always modeling. I was out of school so much, and I could not read… Not being able to speak Spanish makes me really sad, because when I go to places like Mexico I start to pick up the language after a few days and it stirs deep emotions in me. It makes me feel emotional. My father passed away when I was seven years old. He was Cuban so connecting to the Spanish language brings back sad memories. I struggle so hard wanting to be good at it. It is at the core of my heritage and Spanish would be such a great place to start, but it is so hard when I try to speak it… It brings so many emotions; I want to get over that.

Your father was killed in a car accident at the young age of 44 when you were 7 years old… How did losing him affect your childhood?
More than anyone can imagine. The worst part is that it will always affect my life. Getting engaged is a huge deal and knowing that he cannot walk me down the aisle totally sucks. So, for obvious reasons, it affected me greatly when I was younger… and it will never stop affecting me; when I have a baby… it makes me crazy to think that he will not be here to meet him.

You still miss him a lot, right?
It is something that only someone who has lost a parent can understand. There are those moments when you are sitting at a coffee shop and someone says something so funny that it reminds you of that person and you really think, wow, they would have laughed so hard and you are not even thinking and, all of a sudden, you are overcome with sadness. That feeling will always be with you. Death is like this big pile of rocks sitting on you and there is this crane on top of you. As time goes by, some rocks start moving away a tiny bit, allowing you to breath, literally…a little bit, -Bella says with tears welling up in her eyes- But there will always be times when there are still rocks and it’s still hard to breath, even though time is this crazy creature that helps… It never goes away, it’s always there, you are always covered by, you know, this heavy rock… And…Yeah, no matter how old I get, I will always be very upset to not have my father. It is so hard to lose anybody close to you. I have lost so many members of my family, I can count with a few fingers who are alive, but when it is one of your parents or a sibling it definitely is a whole new level of pain.

Do you get along with your siblings?
I have two sisters and a brother and we are very close to each other. I think they are so proud of what I have accomplished. It is just so crazy being these kids that started with nothing, our parents did not have much, they started from scratch, always having financial problems. Really, really a struggle and it is so crazy that we are here or alive or happy for the most part. There are always going to be problems but we are all happy and we do not have big issues with each other. I’m just so grateful for that.

What is the best advice your mom ever gave you?
There’s been so much advice she has given through the years, but I think the one thing she’s emotionally left with me and that I’m so thankful for is that she always had faith in me. Quite a few things, but this one got me where I am today. Here it is, this little girl who has this love for something and doesn’t know how to do it, she cannot read, cannot write, want to act, and get to all these things… -remembers laughing.- You, as a mother, have to decide so many times, how do I make the right decisions for my daughter because she wants to start that, and I want to make her happy and I want help her to succeed… It is just so hard in the industry. My mother has this mentality: “Hey, you do not need to actually know it to get started, you can get started and learn it then you can really study and be good no matter what.” She has always had this belief in me that I really needed, it encouraged me. I would not be able to do all these things, constantly working, constantly creating, wanting this, wanting that, I can really credit my mom for that.

Did you see yourself going this far when you were a child?
That’s the greatest thing about my Mom’s spirit. She is of the philosophy that you can have nothing and then have everything, you can have a hit… She has this belief in any scenario. It’s crazy, she says “hey Bella, you can go book this dance show even though you have two left feet and have no idea how to dance. Let’s do the audition; you can do this.”I remember I had to go to an audition for a horror movie, ten pages of a convulsion scene when I had to be possessed and you watch me go through periods of possession while I’m tied up to a chair. The scene was not even in the movie. The director only wanted me to do this because he wanted to see if the actress could give it all. The night before, I was like “Mom I am suffering, I cannot do this tomorrow, did you read the scene?” I was fifteen at that time. “How am I supposed to do this? I love horror movies. I’ve seen them all, you mention one, and I know it, ok? “You can totally do that,” she said, “like you do it every time… What are the two things you are best at? Screaming and crying, acting like you are about to die. Do those and now add the possession!!” I did so and the director gave me the role in the room. My mom gave me that belief –“you can do it, every time.”

Full interview: us.hola.com

Bella Thorne: “It would be sad if I quit because of cancel culture”

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On the corner of a dingy street in Los Angeles, Bella Thorne is yelling down the barrel of a video camera. “You’re just Hollywood cockroaches,” she spits, before chucking her half-finished drink in the direction of a gob-smacked paparazzi. Fans jostle in the background, screaming requests at the star.

This is the opening scene from new music drama Paradise City, but Thorne has had plenty of similar experiences in her own life. She might not be the biggest name, but she has a punk rock spirit and is no stranger to controversy – both of which stand in direct contrast to the squeaky clean image she had as a Disney child actor. It’s a combination that makes her catnip to tabloid hacks and gossip columns.

“Hollywood people being vultures is definitely relatable,” she says over the phone from LA, sounding tired and fed up. “I’ve definitely had bad experiences with paparazzi that feel the need to push the boundaries to get the shot.”

That the 23-year-old actor would respond in a similar manner to her Paradise City character Lily Mayflower, bassist of the show’s fictional band The Relentless, is part of what enticed her to get involved with the series. “I just felt like she was so much a part of me,” says Thorne. “I think that really shows. This character is so natural for me to play. I felt like she was another half of me that I hadn’t met yet.”

Season one – now streaming on Amazon Prime Video – submerges itself in the LA rock scene, centring on the comeback of The Relentless after frontman Johnny Faust (played by Black Veil Brides’ Andy Biersack) returns from hiatus. Now back in the game, the group have to deal with inter-band conflict and the consequences of past actions as they try not to implode.

In another memorable scene from Paradise City’s first episode, the returning Johnny rants against the music industry while standing on the roof terrace of his luxury apartment that was bought with said industry’s money. In it, he characterises the business as “psychotic”, a description Thorne – who also has a growing music career – agrees with to some extent. “The music industry doesn’t have a union so that already makes it a fucking shitshow to do anything,” she says. This isn’t strictly true – SAG-AFTRA, the American Federation of Musicians and the American Guild Of Musical Artists all exist – but it does highlight the fact that a lot of mainstream artists aren’t aware of the help that’s available to them. “I’ve seen people do some pretty crazy shit in music. I’ve definitely had my fair share of interesting experiences.”

She declines to specify what those experiences consist of, but a simple Google search will reveal some of the hurdles Thorne’s had to overcome. Born in Florida, she got her debut gig as a weeks-old baby model in 1997. Acting began at six, scoring an uncredited role in the Matt Damon comedy Stuck On You, before her dad was tragically killed in a motorbike accident leaving Thorne as the family’s main source of income. By nine, she’d had her breakthrough as dancer CeCe Jones in the Disney series Shake It Up, which also featured a young Zendaya. Much later, in 2018, Thorne revealed she had suffered sexual abuse until the age of 14.

As she grew up, Thorne moved away from the wholesome pre-teen image crafted for her by Disney execs. She did things that are typical of young adulthood – drinking, dating and exploring her sexuality – but because of the world she had first become famous in, her actions were harshly scrutinised. The media accused her of being a heroin addict and simultaneously sexualised her while labelling her a “slut”. In one 2017 article published by Screen Rant, the actor was described as “crazy” in a listicle of Disney stars who went “off the rails”. The suggested evidence? Her colourfully dyed hair, wearing of bikinis, drinking and taking naked photos of herself. Hardly out of the ordinary. Given the constant online battering and inevitable toll that takes on a person’s mental health, we have to ask: is fame really worth it?

“I think that question comes across your mind every fucking day,” she says. “If you’re a public figure, you’re always weighing up how much of yourself are you willing to give up? These questions run [through] my mind all the time so I don’t have an answer yet…

“It would be so sad [if I quit because of] the media and ‘cancel culture’ and all the annoying people sitting behind a screen wanting to bully people off the internet for no other reason than they’re bored with their own lives,” she adds. “That’s why I keep fighting, even when I’m going through terrible shit in the media or I feel like wanting to die inside my bed.”

Keeping going might be hard sometimes, but Thorne is trying to learn how to care less about what people think. It’s a process that’s also raising more questions for her. “We naturally want people to like our work – we want them to agree or express that they think we’re good,” she says. “It’s undeniable, but it’s just… how bad do you want that? How much of yourself are you willing to step on to get that?”

As you might expect from someone who’s spent their formative years being hounded by the press, Thorne watched the recent Framing Britney Spears documentary. The world has changed a lot since Spears was starting out, but the treatment of young women in the public eye is still an issue. Ask her what needs to happen for things to change and she’ll respond with a big laugh and quip: “Well, that’s a loaded question.”

Full article: nme.com

Bella Thorne Talks Cannabis: ‘Forbidden Flowers Is My Baby’

Bella Thorne’s cannabis line Forbidden Flowers defies all industry expectation.

Ethereal and unapologetically feminine in its aesthetic, the line consists sun-grown cannabis cultivated in Santa Barbara through a partnership with the Glass House Group. Launched in October of 2019, Forbidden Flowers product offerings include eighth jars in sleek glass ombre packaging, as well as colorful prerolled joints.

The Forbidden Flowers lineup of indica, sativa, and hybrid strains is constantly evolving. The new year prompted a release of three new strains—Moonbloom, Bright Eye, and Passion Project—to the adult-use marketplace. Thorne personally handpicks the strains after a year of R&D. She has even teased a forthcoming hemp and CBD product lineup for the brand’s future that would someday be available nationwide.

I spoke with Thorne on her passion for Forbidden Flowers, expanding its retail footprint across the state, her meticulous joint rolling process while testing new strains, and a potential collaboration with Uncle Snoop someday in the future.

I love your brand Forbidden Flowers, it is altar-worthy packaging. How did you land on a soft, sparkly, glittery aesthetic?
I wanted the brand to be an embodiment of my free spirit and personality. That is why you see the fun, soft, glitter aesthetic. I feel like this type of flirty aesthetic is something you don’t see a lot in the industry, and I believe it’s what makes Forbidden Flowers stand out compared to other cannabis brands.

What do you want the brand to tell consumers when they see it on the shelf?
I want the brand to tell the consumers that they are welcomed with open arms and to see Forbidden Flowers as something they can enjoy and incorporate throughout their daily lives. I want them to know that the brand is truly raw and authentic. There is no messing around with this stuff, and I want consumers to know the work and love that is put into this cannabis line.

How do you feel cannabis can take women CEOs, women in the boardroom, to a new level? Why do women love cannabis?
I think women love cannabis because it can soothe stress and channels a cascade of creativity. The cannabis industry is a particularly woman-friendly environment and actually has a higher percentage of working women than many other industries which I think is so important.

Snoop called you his “niece” on Instagram and I have to know: how did your friendship start? Is he a role model in cannabis, music, or how do you personally look up to uncle Snoop?
Snoop is like family and a role model because we both support each other’s passions. Our friendship started when our good friend Dave O introduced us, he said “Snoop you’re going to love this girl.” The rest is history. He’s become such a strong influence in my life and he always has my back. He is like my cousin, bestie, and godfather all rolled up into one. We obviously also bonded over our love for cannabis and when Snoop smokes my hand rolled spliffs… it makes my heart smile.
We hang out with each other quite often. Snoop has always given me the most authentic advice to being myself. He tells me I am one of the only ones that can keep up with him when it comes to smoking. That goes down as one of the best compliments that I have ever received!

Is there a Bella and Snoop TV show on the way?
Probably somewhere in the future. We want to work on some music together and I am sure our relationship will expand in so many other aspects of our lives.

Let’s talk about weed. I want to know, how much research, testing, and if you had a rough estimate, how many joints/bowls did you smoke to find your favorite strains in the new lineup?
I handpicked each strain, so I had to smoke a lot of joints to ensure that the final selections were perfect. I spent the better part of a year sampling innumerable strains and refining my handpicked favorites. Forbidden Flowers is my baby, and I wanted to make sure that it was nothing but high quality. I will only deliver the best; if it’s something I wouldn’t smoke regularly, it would not be on the shelves.

Do you have a personal favorite method of consumption?
I only like smoking joints that I roll myself. I can’t smoke from a joint that someone else has rolled. I don’t know why, it’s kind of a weird thing, might be a little bit of superstition. I am so specific and neurotic when it comes to weed. But, it would be nice to get over it so I can smoke from other stuff!

Have you been in the grow, do you like to grow cannabis or plants? And how do you feel communing with the Forbidden Flowers plants?
I am very passionate about growing cannabis. Forbidden Flowers is grown at Glass House Farms in Santa Barbara so I obviously don’t personally grow it myself but I enjoy being involved and learning more about it. When you’re standing in the middle of all those beautiful, healthy plants, it gives you such a sense of tranquility and happiness. Personally, I love the way Forbidden Flowers is grown because it is some of the highest quality sun-grown cannabis that I think money can buy.

I know it’s like asking to choose between your children, but do you have a personal favorite Forbidden Flowers strain? What’s your go-to at this moment?
This is a tough one! Right now I do not have a favorite. Honestly, all of the strains are amazing, you can’t go wrong with any. But I know people will want to hear about one, so I guess you could say my favorite is Moonbloom, one of our Indicas. It has a slightly sweet aroma which I love and hope consumers love too.

Where do you see the cannabis industry in 5 years?
I see the cannabis industry taking off as it gets legalized in more states, and hopefully eventually, a nationwide legalization. There is absolutely going to be more production and distribution in the market. I also expect to see more women leaders getting involved in the cannabis industry alongside other women at the forefront of legalization, cannabis rights, and other related issues. For Forbidden Flowers specifically, we are actually in the middle of expanding our retail footprint. By mid-April you should be able to find us at a lot more locations. So 5 years from now… the sky’s the limit!

Source: forbes.com

Bella Thorne On New Song “Phantom,” Feminism & Censorship

Bella Thorne wants to be clear: she does not hate men. Sure, her new song “Phantom” is a scorching rap-rock taunt calling out the demanding “piggies” (read: past male partners) in her life, but as she also clarifies on the track: “I’m not a man hater / I just need a daddy that’s loyal, not a traitor.” Dressed in a T-shirt with a lit, freshly-rolled joint in hand, Thorne expanded on the lyric over a recent Zoom call. “All of a sudden, you feel afraid to say you’re a feminist in a room because everyone’s going to look at you like you hate men, like you want to kill them all,” she says. “That is not what we’re saying. That is not the point.”

“Phantom,” out Friday and exclusively premiering on NYLON below, is Thorne’s version of a feminist anthem — and she’s preemptively rolling her eyes at the backlash that tends to come with anything the multi-hyphenate does. Named after the ghost-like speed at which Thorne will drop a toxic relationship, the track responds to the many ways men have tried to control her and her friends’ lives, and how “I’m tired of them telling me how to live my life,” she says. (The newly-engaged singer did, however, say yes to her boyfriend Benjamin Mascolo.) “Girl, what he do? Thought I’d let him dress me / ‘How tight’s your top, isn’t it too sexy?’” she mockingly raps over a snarling beat. Thorne tapped veteran guitarist Malina Moye to seriously shred in the background, the crackling rip of her instrument acting as a final exclamation point to the song’s message. Altogether, it’s a brazen addition to Thorne’s rapidly-unfolding musical universe.

“Phantom” follows a string of recent releases from Thorne, including “Shake It,” a slinky, twerk-friendly song that stirred up some controversy itself; its music video, which showed Thorne making out with porn star Abella Danger in bed while dressed in bridal lingerie, was briefly taken down by YouTube following its release. It prompted the actor and singer to call out the platform on Instagram. “What’s that about?!” she wrote. “And you all wonder why I’m on OnlyFans.” Calling from Los Angeles, Thorne explained her grievance more clearly: “If I was having a fake sex scene with a man, you would [leave it up]. You wouldn’t take down that video because almost every pop f*cking song has a love scene with a male.”

Below, and joined in conversation with Moye, Thorne spoke at length about the censorship of her videos, empowering women with her music, and her new song “Phantom.”

Bella, you’ve been releasing many singles recently. How are you feeling about “Phantom”?
Thorne: I’m definitely most excited by “Phantom.” This track for me is definitely an artist track, to be appreciated by artists. I like to release fun music and “Phantom” definitely goes under the category of fun, but it’s also under the much bigger umbrella of “important.” I think when people really read the lyrics and they actually watch the video, it definitely is going to change their perspective, and hopefully this song changes people’s perspective when it comes to the female-male dynamic relationship. And hopefully it changes someone’s perspective when it comes to me as an artist.

Was this a remote collaboration or were you in the studio together?
Thorne: We actually have very, very different, busy schedules. So we weren’t able to get in the studio together to lay it down, but I know with Malina, it didn’t matter if I was in the studio with her or not, she’s going to send it back and it’s gonna be murdered. It’s going to be f*cking killed. [Laughs.]
Moye: Thank you! And Bella had put such a beautiful foundation down already so the record was already amazing. I heard the flow. I was like, “Oh, I get it.” And then I was like, “Hey, let’s add some of this.”

What I got from the song is that it sounds like you asserting your own agency in leaving a controlling relationship. Can you speak a bit more about the female-male dynamic you brought up earlier?
Thorne: Girl, I’ll bring it up. I’ll bring it up all f*cking day. I’ll preach this sh*t. I think as women in general, we’ve all been in a relationship with a partner, especially when it’s the female and male dynamic, we definitely feel that dynamic shift in our lives. All of us have dated someone who has told us the way we should dress, the way we should dye our hair, the way we should look. “Oh, are you sure you’re gonna wear that today, babe? I really like the other one though, your body looks really great in that one.” Like, there’s so many comments that you hear from men to women, and sometimes I don’t think they even mean it. They’re just raised that way and they don’t even realize what they’re saying, it doesn’t make us feel good.
There’s a lot of friends in my life who were in some very controlling-ass relationships. That’s exactly where that line comes from: “Is that skirt too short?” “Is it sexy?” We’re gonna make a song for every girl out there that’s like, “F*ck these men! I’m tired of them telling me how to live my life!” That was the theme when we were in the studio writing it. That’s also why it was really important to put the part about, “I’m not a man hater / I just need a daddy that’s loyal, not a traitor.”
Moye: Amen.
Thorne: Yes! That’s the truth. People have put such a bad connotation on the word “feminist” — [and] it’s a beautiful word — that now all of a sudden you feel afraid to say you’re a feminist in a room because everyone’s going to look at you like you hate men. Like you want to kill them all. Like you want no men on planet Earth and women run the whole entire world and want no men alive, and that is not what we’re saying. That is not the point!

Malina, when you were laying down the guitar, was it mostly freestyle?
Moye: I look at this as a hip-hop track. Bella said, “Do what inspires you.” I started thinking about Jay-Z and his “Death of AutoTune.” The E chord is the aggression of a woman saying, “Take this, now!” And then with the solo, I was like, man let’s just go off.

Bella, you write all of your songs. When you go to the studio do you have any rituals that you do to get in a creative headspace?
Thorne: Smoke f*cking weed, which is my ritualistic headspace when I’m writing. [Laughs.] In my studio I always have coffee, which is terrible for your voice. You shouldn’t drink it while you’re in the studio but I’m f*cking tired. I have hot water with honey, and then some type of vodka drink for fun. I have my writing book and my notes pad and then I have Sabir and me and usually an engineer or producer.

YouTube recently took down your “Shake It” video, though it’s back up now.
Thorne: Section 230 needs to be looked at again! [Editor’s Note: Section 230 is a piece of legislation that protects users and content hosting websites from being held liable for information published by other users or providers. It also offers protection to users and providers for removing material they consider to be “obscene, lewd, lascivious, filthy, excessively violent, harassing, or otherwise objectionable, whether or not such material is constitutionally projected” as long as the action is “taken in good faith.”]

You called out the company’s double standards on censoring videos, and this is something they’ve been doing to women artists for so many years. I know CupcaKke has had her videos taken down and Mykki Blanco. Do you think there’s hope in changing that standard?
Thorne: Yes, I do. I want to also start my own platform for women. You know, people were like, “Maybe you shouldn’t post [“Shake It”] Bella, cause YouTube’s going to be mad at you and they’re gonna take down all your next videos too.” And I’m like, I don’t give a f*ck! They’re gonna do it anyway because clearly I’m a woman and I’m making out with a woman in this video. If I was having a fake sex scene with a man, you would put it in. You wouldn’t take down that video because almost every pop f*cking song has a love scene with a male. It’s just so much of our content that we view that we think that’s normal, but as soon as it’s two women, it’s, “Oh, it’s salacious, it’s so overly sexual, it’s so blah blah blah, oh my God.” And you’re just like, “What are you talking about?”
I have this song called “Mama I’m Proud.” And the whole song talks about how, when I’m looking in the mirror, I’m talking sh*t. “You a hoe, you a b*tch, you a failure, you should quit. You should sing like Taylor Swift.” Because that’s what everyone says. Why is it as women, that nothing is ever good enough for us, that we are never at the top of the chain? We never feel that we have done something amazing. There’s always something and it’s just so important to change the narrative. To change the mental narrative that we tell ourselves every f*cking day.
Moye: Being a Black woman and dabbling in the rock world, and playing guitar, one of the things I’m constantly saying is: “You have to change the narrative.” How come we don’t see more women on the cover of these guitar magazines? Why is it always men? Why are these people constantly regurgitating the same people when it’s 2021 and surely there are more women playing?
My mom and dad always said to me, “Malina, when you don’t see yourself represented, show up. When you think you can’t, show up. And always know you matter and you count.” So just by being there, you’re making change and making people feel like, “Yeah, if Bella’s doing it, then f*ck it, I’ll put my video up too. And if I want to do this with this person, that’s who I am. That’s what I’ll do.” Well, that’s important.

Source: nylon.com

Bella Thorne on Therapy, Owning Her Pansexuality and Dreams of Building a Hollywood Studio

Bella Thorne isn’t one to lie. In fact, the former Disney child star (she appeared alongside Zendaya on “Shake It Up”) lives her life in the open. From sex-infused music videos to her tell-all memoir, “The Life of a Wannabe Mogul: Mental Disarray,” the 23-year-old calls honesty “the strongest form of currency.”

She recently dropped the video for her single “Phantom.” The look and feel, Thorne says, is inspired by Guillermo del Toro, Tim Burton, David Lynch and “The Twilight Zone.” It’s also a good look at how her mind works. “My first book was called ‘The Life of a Wannabe Mogul: Mental Disarray.’ I literally say this is what the inside of my brain looks like,” Thorne tells me over Zoom from her Los Angeles home. “Shit is everywhere. Thoughts are coming out from random places and orifices I didn’t even know I had. And it really works its way into my professional life, for sure. Whenever I’m doing videos, whenever I’m writing, I’m just like, ‘How do we push this,’ and me watching it to be so visually, I don’t know the word, in awe.”

Thorne, who identifies as pansexual, recently announced that she and Italian musician Benjamin Mascolo are engaged to be married. “I don’t even know what I want in my wedding. I’ve never even thought about, ‘What do you want at your wedding?’ she says. “We’re doing two weddings, one in Italy and one here. He lives in Italy. I think the Italy one will probably be more like flying in crazy things, just craziness. Let’s have some fucking fun. Then I feel like maybe the American one might be a little bit more serene, and a bit more traditional. Not that anything with me is ever traditional. I know what I want, for a fact, is hanging, dripping flowers and vines everywhere. Every orifice of every surface, everything. I don’t care where they don’t fit, fit them.”

What’s your second book going to be about? You really put yourself out there with the first one.
I figured out the name. I haven’t told anybody. I’m going to tell you right now, because I love the name. I think that I should call it “Mental Rehab” since the first one is “Mental Disarray.” There’s all these things that I talk about in the first book that are quite dark. With the format of this book and the messiness of the last one, I’m going to completely change the format so that at the beginning of the book, you can see what mental disarray I was still in. By the end of the book, everything’s so much cleaner, in place, like my brain should be by the time I’m at the end. It’s just going to be about me working on so much shit mentally. Finally, this will be my first time ever going to therapy as well this year. I have my first therapy session on Monday. So I’ll be writing a lot about that and just the mental changes I want to make to grow. I just don’t want to be myself, I want to be this better version of myself that I know I can be. And I just need to do the mental work to get to that place that I want to be, which is happy, not always dealing with depression.

You just got engaged.
He did it on our movie that we did together, which is his first time ever acting, and my first time working with someone that I’ve dated. It’s just such a big first for us, especially for our relationship, to see how we can actually really work together on set, all day long, talking about the stuff, going through these scenes, going through hard scenes. It was such a great testament to our relationship to really just see how easy it is for us to mentally give and take from one another and get on the same page. Then when we were doing re-shoots in Spain and he asked me on set. It was very, very cute. It was so sweet.

I talked to your ex Tyler Posey the other day and he credits you with getting him on OnlyFans.
My production studio Content X works with Tyler. We shoot his content. The company has just completely outgrown itself so quickly. I finance everything. And to have a company that completely finances itself within five months of being up, I’m like, “When have you heard that?”

When are you going to open a full-fledged studio? When are you going to have the Bella Thorne lot somewhere in Hollywood?
No one’s ever asked me that. You’re amazing. Hopefully, by the time I’m 27.

You’re 23.
I got four years to open up my own studio lot. I’m finally signing my production deal on my show that I wrote, that I created, that is my baby, that I’ve been writing since I was 18.

How often are you hearing from other young, queer kids saying, “Thank you for being you. Thank you for being out. Thanks for just living your truth.”
All the fucking time, but it makes me so happy. It’s usually the kids that have been soul crushed throughout time, told they couldn’t be themselves, told they couldn’t be this or that, and everything else but themselves. It just makes me just so happy that they feel this connection and that they feel heard. It’s every single reason why I put out the fucking book. I think honesty is the strongest form of currency. When I came out on Twitter was before it was super, super normal to be out, and especially in Hollywood. And I remember it was hard with jobs, it was hard with people in meetings. And I can’t even imagine being a gay man because people look at me and they go, “Oh, well, she fucks men too, so it’s okay.” Because I’m pans. And I’m like, “Okay.” And they’re like, “Okay, well, you know what? She’ll just basically fuck anything, I guess. So it’s fine.” I just can’t imagine the pain that so many people that I’ve looked up to and worshiped for years have gone through in this industry wanting to be themselves. I remember everyone calling me at the time when I posted that on Twitter, and everyone was saying, “Bella, do you know what you just did though? Do you know how this is going to affect you?” And I was like, “What’s it matter?” I was like, “Don’t be an idiot. They’re going to get photos of me. Someone’s going to pap me making out with that girl. Someone’s going to fucking say something. I’m not a liar. They’re going to see it. It’s going to blow up. You’re expecting me to lie my whole life. Is this what I’m hearing on the phone? What’s it matter? What’s it fucking matter? Even if it sucks for a little bit, at least I did it and I don’t have to lie anymore or worry about it.”

Source: variety.com

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